Friday, May 15, 2015

~~~BFP Warning~~~


For those who have been anxiously waiting for my beta hcg results, I apologize.  I've just been so overwhelmed with excitement, I have been having a difficult time coming up with the words to write.  

For those that do not understand or know what a Beta HCG tests is, I will do my best explaining.  A beta HCG is a quantitative number that tells you and your doctor a number of how much pregnancy hormone is in a persons body.  This number is expected to double at least every 48-72 hours.  

I've learned, and maybe it's just a coincidence, when my clinic has bad news to deliever my Reproductive Endocrinologist calls.  So I knew it had to be good news when it was my nurse/donor coordinator on the other end of the line. She is amazing.  She is so sweet, kind, and soft spoken.  I wish I could be more like her.  Anyway, she said with her soft voice...

"Mindy, we are looking for your Beta HCG to be greater than 100.
Your beta is 1360."

In my disbelief, I am sure I asked her to repeat it like 12 times.  To preface this, I have NEVER had a strong Beta.  I have NEVER had one double.  Two days later I had another blood draw.  This time, I think it was a medical assistant on the other end.  

"Mindy, your beta today is 2870.  Dr. G said it's a great rise, we can schedule you for your 7 week ultrasound."

I scheduled my ultrasound, just a few days shy of 7 weeks.  But then again in disbelief I had one more blood draw.  This blood draw was a week after Beta #2.  This time it was my sweet nurse on the other end.

"Mindy, have you had a chance to look up your beta online?"
"Yes, 19,576"
"Mindy, it is a beautiful rise..."  
"I will not be in the satellite office on May 22nd, but I will be stalking the computer for your ultrasound results!"

I am in my own personal uncharted territory.  My beta had a doubling time of 43.3 hours.  Right where it needs to be.  I cannot believe that I, Mindy, am pregnant.  

I am going to make my husband a father. 

He has been cautiously optimistic, especially since our last failed embryo transfer.  

I have to aw at my husband for a second.  He is getting excited.  A few days ago he did have an "oh shit" moment where he and I talked about how real this is.  Fast forward to today...  He texted me with two names.  He had a dream and he said that this is what the babies want to be named.  (He's convinced we are having two).  Although I did not love, well even really like one of the names, I think it's adorable that he is dreaming about this pregnancy.  He is getting excited.  

My Heart Is Happy!!