Sunday, September 16, 2012

Am I that fragile?


Last night Dh and I were hanging out with friends, dinner and drinks.  I was texting one of my my bestie from HS, who lives four hrs from me, wishing her a happy birthday.  I have known for sometime she and her husband were trying to have a baby.  I asked if she had a baby on the way.  she replied "well as a matter of fact yes.  I'm having a girl in Dec.  Sorry, it's been too hard for me to tell you."   I tried to hold myself together, but I couldn't.  

She is half way through her pregnancy and she did not tell me.  I know she was trying to protect me, but I'm hurt!  On top of everything I asked when she was having a shower, She said yes, next month.  She said I could go if I want to.  I'm not sure if she was even going to invite me.  

Am I that fragile, that my BF form HS can't tell me she is pregnant?  I would find out eventually.  I'm one who would rather know if someone is pregnant.  Get over my grief and then move on.  I find it more hurtful when ppl keep secrets.