2WW Hell

Today is 3dp3dt.  I can't help but let my mind play tricks on me.  1dp3dt I had a little pink spotting.  I freaked out a bit, even though my discharge papers and the RE told me it is very common to have spotting.

Yesterday 2dp3dt I had some cramping, and twinges.  I thought that it was awesome maybe implantation is taking place.   I will have my happy ending after all.

Today I feel nothing.  No cramping, no spotting, just pure nothingness.  I really hope its a good sign, but seriously, this is the worst feeling ever.  I want to feel like something is happening.

DH has been super cute.  He has been waiting on me hand and foot.  I have seriously been the biggest couch potato.  Maybe I will unpack our suitcases today from our boring, but eventful Vegas trip to keep my mind off of things.

I need to remember that WE will have OUR happy ending and DH will find out very soon that we are expecting!!!

Knocked up until proven otherwise

We transferred both embryos.  One is a grade 2, 8 cell embryo with a ges score of 95 (the clinic prefers a ges score >70), the other is a grade 2, 7 cell embryo with a ges score of 35.

We are very excited we have made it this far!  Now the dreaded 2WW.   I'm not sure if it will be worse on me or DH.  Stick little embies stick, snuggle in nice and tight!!! 

I wore my lucky socks that my friend Vanessagorc sent me, and I had my lucky turtle charm in hand that Bear gave me before I headed to Las Vegas :) 

Here are our embies

Hooray for two!!!!

Two embies!!!  

I cannot believe it.  Both eggs fertilized normally!!!  I am beyond ecstatic.  

Who knew I would be so excited for two embies?  Now I'm keeping the faith they will both make it until Friday for our three day transfer. 

DH has had a huge smile on his face all day.  I can't believe how excited this had made both of us. 

Grow embies, grow, keep fighting, stay strong and make it to transfer on Friday!!!

Home from ER

DH makes me laugh so hard.  Every time we have gone in for an iui he has updated his FB status as "it's magic time."  Well today he updated it as "so it's magic time and they let me film some of the procedure." with this link.  It is so effing funny.  


So they retrieved two eggs. There was a third that they were unable to retrieve.

The Dr. will call tomorrow with my fert report.  I'm trying to stay hopeful the two retrieved fertilize normally and become my miracle baby(s).

Please send positive vibes that we have two rockstars!  

Rock Star Follicle

Yesterday I had my 4^th monitoring appt.  The Follicle on the Left was 20mm :)

The two on the right have not grown, so one follie was still 10mm, the other 12mm.  The MD felt we needed to move forward, so they had me trigger last night.  Tomorrow I will go in for my ER.  

I am still holding out hope the smaller follicles will surprise us and they will be mature, if not I will have one rock star.  Either way I have a good feeling the fatty follicle on the right will be A+ quality :)

Power of positive thought & monitoring apt# 2

The other night I watched The Secret with my Aunt Lori Gayle and her husband Michael.  This is a film/documentary discusses the Power of optimism, using the “law of attraction.”  My understanding is you place a thought in your mind of something you want to happen to you, such as being a millionaire, and if you like positively about it, you will “attract it” and it will come to you.  On the other had, if you have negative feelings toward something the “law of attraction” will bring those negative things into your life, such as “I will never…” or “I can’t…”   

So, I will do my very best to remain positive from this day forward.  I KNOW deep in my heart I will be a mom.  I will get knocked up with my OE!!!

Today’s u/s…My lining is perfect. I have 2 follies on the right ovary which are less than 10 mm (they have not grown since Monday). The Dr. does not think they will catch up. My Left ovary has one follicle that is 14mm (the only potential egg). At this point my cycle will not be canceled, so we are moving forward and I have another u/s on Sat.  ER is tentatively scheduled for Monday or Tues. I’m excited for my one miracle, rock star follicle, and I am hoping for a huge miracle that the smaller ones will catch up :)

Viva Las Vegas and my u/s

I arrived in Las Vegas last night.  I have already had an amazing time hanging out with my awesome Aunt Lori Gail.  She is an amazing person and I am so happy I have this time I can spend with her while going through this horrible IVF process.  We were able to lay out at the pool today after my u/s and catch up.

As for my u/s, my lining is 10.5.  My right ovary has 2 follies, which are both less than 10 mm. My Left ovary has 1 follicle that is about 9 mm's and a few small ones follicles hanging out around 5 mm's. I will stim for a few more days, and then I will have another u/s Thurs. This is not the best news.  I was hoping for few more follies, but things are coming along slowly.

I need to remind myself that is not the quantity of follicles, but the quality.  Many women have successful pregnancies with only a few eggs!  It only takes one!!!  As one of my bump friends has said we will fall 100% into the 25-30% success rate category for DOR :)